Ma's Monolouge

Ma’s monologue... Today has been a long day, a long day. Everybody is tired, I’m tired, and all I can think about is how long before everybody is gonna want food, and how long before we run out of food. We’ve passed so many places, so many places that I didn’t even know existed, I’m so glad we’re doing’ this together, as a family. Don’t know what i’d have done if everybody else would have lost the faith, cause I aint got faith. I don’t want to think about whats gonna happen when we get there. I’m just thinking about today and my family. I’m so worried about grampa, I don’t know how much longer his gonna last, his getting awful weak and I can’t do nothing about it, I’m responsible for everyone else too. Im not complaining, I just feel responsible when it comes down to feeding everyone. I suppose the silly old foul will make it, he sure is a fighter, always has been. And then there’s grandma, she’s always worried me, always shouting out stuff “praise the lord”, think tom forgot have crazy he’s family was. Hes coping well though, my boy, musta been hard for anyone after coming out of jail to then not have a home, not have his family have nothing. What am I sayin toms the strongest one of all of us, gets that’s from his granpa, tom was always a favourite of hes. I keep telling tom to keep out of trouble but deep down I know he’s gonna, its justa matter of time. I’m not sure I have that much time though. Pa, I need to keep strong for him. Hess trying so hard to keep strong for the family, but I know that’s only a matter of time. He won’t admit it; I wouldn’t if I was him. But that god danm farm taken away everything has really hit him. Nearly as much as it hit granmpa. Pa used to be so proud, I used to be so proud of what we had. We had it good.